Autumn blew the quilt right off the perfect bed she made.
And she’s chosen to believe
In the hymns her mother sings
Sunday pulls its children from their piles of fallen leaves
Iron & Wine “Passing Afternoon
There’s a saying that goes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”. I think we have all, at one time or another, found ourselves in a place where we think we finally have lined all our ducks in a row, fit all the pieces of the puzzle together and it looks like life’s finally coming together and then, like Sam beam sings, “autumn blows the quilt right off” and we’re left with the pieces of the “perfect, predictable life” we had envisioned in our minds. Our ducks are free-style floating across the lake (go with me here), a toddler has steam-rolled through our puzzle and all the leaves have been shaken off our beautiful fall tree.
What do we do now? We’ve tried doing it all on our own. Piecing our quilts perfectly together. Finding the right significant other that meets all the qualities on our “list”. Finding the perfect job that has nothing we dread (like paperwork), driving the right car, buying the best house. But really, what if our life turned out that way? What if you got everything you wanted and it all lined up perfectly?
There is a bible verse in which Jesus says “Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish will give him a snake instead?” So, you may ask: WHY AM I NOT GETTING WHAT I ASK FOR? WHY IS MY PERFECT LIFE NOT LINING UP? Well maybe, just may be. You think you’re asking for a fish… but really you’re asking for a snake. What we think we want may be the very thing that will destroy us. What we think is a “perfect life” may not be all that we hope it will be. What if it turns out that the imperfection and the unpredictability is really what makes life beautiful and what will make us look back on our lives with joy and gratitude.
May we learn the lessons from the hymns our mothers sing. And instead of mourning over the fallen leaves, find the faith to say “I’m ready for whatever life brings”.