#Lyricoftheday I found my life when I laid it down. – @Hillsong United “Touch the Sky”
There’s a quote that the legendary John Lennon is credited for saying: “Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.” I know that is supposed to be an inspirational quote, but frankly, it freaks me out. You see, I’m a planner. And what that means is, my brain is always running, running, running. I’m constantly flooded with ideas and dreams and hopes and plans; which are all good things. They are things that excite me, make me look forward to waking up in the morning. but can sometimes make me believe the illusion that my life is completely in my control. That if I just the right amount of sticky notes, or buy that one more daily/monthly/yearly planner that this organized, strategic planning will lead me to the highest amount of success and happiness possible.
The reality, of course, is that even the tiniest of plans can be derailed by something as simple as getting stuck in traffic, as I experienced while I was driving around for work this past week. I had planned down to the minute where I would need to be at what time, only to need to relinquish my plan to the circumstances and be stuck in traffic for just about half an hour (you think driving around in LA for the past 27 years would have taught me something!)
But this lesson did teach me something. It taught me that I can’t find my life in the grasping and clinging to the idea that I have for what I want life to be. I also can’t sulk and give up simply because what I wanted (or thought I wanted to happen) didn’t happen, or not yet. And while I love planning, and I feel like that creative, excited, dreamer part of me is a part that God created; I must hold my idea of my life loosely. Of a “perfect life” loosely. Because even if everything did turn out the way that I had hoped, the experience and living of it would not be all that I hoped for or thought it would be. The reality is that God knows the outcome of my plans better than I do. The thing I thought was best for me, may not actually be best for me. And the life that I find when I let go of the life I keep trying to hold onto is the abundant life that is promised to me.